That was then, this is now

Save yourself.
Because the only thing that matters
is that you get away from the pain
and the thought of losing your mind.
Don't blame yourself.
It was everyone around you who made you act this way.
There's the stage and your chance to watch it go down.

Don't fake yourself into ever, ever thinking about yesterday.
That was then, this is now.
Don't call it undone.
Don't take what you've been dealt.
You can exit out the back and make your getaway
before anyone can see the damage you have done.

This time is the last time so be here, here now.
This time is the last time. Somehow make it through.

State your case. You've got everyone's attention.
What can you say? Thanks or forget what you've been given.
Take your place. Do you think that you deserve the best of everything?
We don't get why you're here. Can you figure it out?

This time is the last time so be here, here now.

You've got to get away.
Oh, I get lost in the thought of losing you.
You've got to get away. I know it's a dream but it must be true.
Wave now goodbye. It's the lesson that you've been given.
You can always move on to better things.

This time is the last time so be here, but be here now.
This time is the last time somehow.
This time is the last time so be here, but be here now.
This time is the last time. Somehow make it through.

-MAE, This time is the last time

It's happening again isnt it?

I am going to listen to my heart this time.

You know, some days I just want to GIVE UP.

I just want to give up on everything, to let go.

I just want to cease existing, to cut myself loose from that web of connections I have made the moment I was born...even the tiny fragile ones.

I want to ignore all the unspoken cries by the people around me, to stop listening to my own fears, my doubts, my nightmares.

I dont want to care. To be that so called reliable nice person for everyone to take advantage of, to make sacrifices only to be unappreciated.

I dont want to be caught in this madness called life, to be controlled by events streaming from your own and other people's actions.

Or worse, to be controlled by so many uncertainties.

I want to find some form of control over my own life, to be able to make informed choices and not be pushed or pulled by external factors.

Everyone is trying to get a piece of me for their own uses, and I'm afraid there's soon nothing left of myself.

I'm sick of hypocrites,boot-lickers, blame pushers and all that bloody politics.

I hate to be exploited, oppressed, to be denied of my rights.

To suffer and endure it all, yet not knowing what I am doing it for.

Please, someone, just pull the plug please.

Where's that glimmering light of hope,reason and good?

I cant be the only one.