Here's something about me.

Sometimes, when you see me with earphones, I might not be listening to anything at all.

Try it in a crowd, especially if your head/earphones are noise cancelling. You will find yourself looking at people and things from a different perspective, and discovering new things. Like noticing the bored expression of someone who is part of a particularly noisy group on the train, the way the crowd move in an underpass during the evening, the struggling strides of a lame trying to catch up...

It's clearer to me now, that most of us dont really know what we are doing most of time. We just try to follow and blend in with the rest.

The other day, I was running after a bus and a pram got into my way. I fell, and the maid just screamed and shouted for her 'mum' to come. Her mum, upon looking at my bruises, told me curtly "sorry, I dont know anything...I was behind and it was my maid who was standing there" before trying to get up the bus .

Have we forgotten how to say a simple sorry? Or at least ask if the other party is ok?

Something's wrong with this whole system.


I hate this country.

Pick me up

Elephant in your brain
Reminding you you've got to make a choice
Wraps his arms around you slow,
Cause you tense up like an armadillo

-God make up your mind, Cold war kids

I'm at the crossroads waiting for a sign
My life is standing still but I’m still alive
Every night I think I know
in the morning where did it go
The answers disappear when I open my eyes

I’m no stranger to this place
Where real life and dreams collide
and even though I fall from grace
I will keep the dream alive
I will keep the dream alive

-Keep the dream alive, Oasis

You tell me I'm free then you tie me down,
And from my chains I think its a pity,
What did it cost you to wear my crown,
You don't like me why don't you admit it.

I feel a little down today,
And I ain't got much to say,
But your gonna miss me when I'm not there
You know I don't care,
You know I don't care.

-I hope, I think, I know, Oasis

'Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

-Stop crying your heart out, Oasis

We're getting high
But we're still feeling down
Gravity has a way of pinning us to the ground

I'm soft, but I'll be alright
Soft, but I'll be alright
Soft, yea I'll be alright

-Gravity's pinning us down, Beulah

The songs I have really have an uncanny way of bringing out my thoughts sometimes.

How time flies.

Half a year has just slipped away, and yet, I am still stuck at where I was one year ago. I have been trying to move on, but it's harder than it seems. When will I ever get back on my feet again?

Sometimes I just feel so helpless, frustrated and confused.

I dont believe in anything now.
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On something more cheerful, I made my first passable proached egg yesterday! Yay!



Presenting my yummylicious chili shrimp paste instant noodles! =)

See how the egg looks so nice? I finally figure out that the best way to let the egg "float" on the noodles is to do it slowly by pouring the egg white first. It worked! Hopefully from now on there will be no more episodes of scrapping off egg bits from the bottom of the pot. Heehee.

Anyway, the instant noodles really tasted great. 9.5/10. (Because I think I overcooked the tomatoes a little haha) Heibi-hiam really goes well with anything. For those you dont know, that is actually a shrimp paste grounded with chili,garlic and lightly fried till it turns reddish brown. It's quite easy to make and can be used for many dishes, or just simply eaten with white rice. That's as good as kimchi is to the koreans for me!=D

Maybe I should be a cook. Hmm.